The Blues Are Still Blue

Raindrops kept falling on my head today. 

Well, the blues are still there:

-Awkward 

-Awkward

-Indecisive

-Pressure 

-No, not awkward (?)

-Longing

-Deserving

-No, not deserving (?)

-Anxious

-A dash of excited

Silence of the Lambs is a wonderful film. Thank you Keanu Reeves. The only thing that could make it better would be you as one of the supporting characters.

Last night's dinner was so delicious. I love good meals. I can think of few things more satisfying than a good meal.

Went shopping today. Thank you brother, for accidentally finding a perfect gift. The items I ordered still haven't arrived. Lame.

I'm not ready. At all.

Something that's disturbing: When you can analyze your own mind and understand why you feel a certain way about something, or why you interpret something the way you do. I was lying in bed, thinking about what happened, and I thought: Oh oh oh. This is why. Because of this and this. Well, that makes sense. Now that I see it that way, I guess I can move on.

But I can't! I just understand my instincts. I still feel exactly the same. Creepy! And probably difficult to understand from the outside. I'm sorry.

Tomorrow:

-Visit Grandpa

-Cousin over?

-Hopefully get the chance to do something that isn't family-related. 

-Mo shopping