Clusterfuck

I got a message back. I knew I would. Just needed to be reassured. Pat on the shoulder. There there. Pure comfort, until I start reasoning.

Filmed a movie with Lily and Mason yesterday morning, which was very awesome. I got to show off my acting abilities by playing a shirtless drunk. And the car chase scene kept me on pins and needles. After that, I got to watch Velvet Goldmine. And then I saw Michael, which made me real happy. It was nice to chat with him, I missed doing that. He's so kind. 

Why do people lack the ability to take hints? I really want you to leave me alone now. Seriously. I don't want to resort to being cruel. What else is one to do?

I think three persons like me, which is kind of sad, because I'm not too good at liking back. Not this way. More like not in this position. 

I'm messing up everything. Embarrassing. Really embarrassing. Fuck. I hate the way I handle things sometimes. I wish I had guidance. A friend, a stranger, somebody. 

. . .

Today started off with Labyrinth. Great start to any day. Not a musical, so I tried to understand why David Bowie was singing. But then I understood that he is David Bowie.

Tonight:

-homework

-coughing

-please grow some balls

Tomorrow:

-test

-test

-song-making