Miami

Let's make this happen. Or maybe I should just go instead. Anything is better. The prospect of a new place and a new life and some new people seems quite out of reach. Taking a few drags only cuts the boredom for so long. There is more to it than that, believe me.

In a matter of weeks, everything will be gone forever. Good riddance. 

That said... almost done! I am getting happy. We will make sense. 

Barnes and Noble, I love you. I am so excited. I've ditched all attempts to work anywhere else, because working for you would be ideal. You have been my favorite store for as long as I can remember, so... yes. This will work for me.

Aw. I'm needy, I know. But thanks for being patient. I appreciate it. And I think I give back a little, too. I know I do.

Tomorrow:

-More positivity 

-More 

-More

-More

When,

when? Yesterday was satisfying, but not enjoyable. Enjoyable is the next step, and I'm sorry, but this isn't good enough for me. There's too much to consider.

Three weeks and I'm home free. I better get the house. I need it. It's not a matter of wanting, it's a legitimate need. Because I can't keep going on like this. CPK, please give me a chance. I promise I'd be good. 

I am exhausted, and not in the traditional sense. I believe I can make shit happen sometime. But until then, I'm going to do more doing. I think they're starting to get it. Because, seriously. I am a human being, remember? I have the same needs and wants. So please, get outta my face.

This weekend I'm going to see if people want to hookah it up, because I really need to hookah already. Also, party? Maybe. It depends. 

Today:

-Photo

-Mr. Wood (unless I leave)

-Search 

Dr

Coke. Possibly the best drink ever created. I put a little more Coke in, because the Dr Pepper can be overwhelming. It took a few tries to perfectly balance the flavors, but I think I've got it.

Yesterday you disappointed me. But my panties shouldn't be in such a bunch. What did I expect going in (that's what she said) anyway? You pepper my eyes. 

Really, everyone just needs to get out of my face. Please.

Today:

-finish eating

-stop eating, forever

-more crunches and running

-less sitting and looking cute

-MASH

The Earth

was quaked. And as falling off my chair ensued (my ass was hanging halfway off, mind you, since I am incapable of finding a comfortable position as a result of having flat feet), I came to realize that I should really have my whole ass on the seat no matter how much it hurts my knees.

I was searching and I found something, but now I'm having doubts. I think I've said something similar before, but inside my head, I am the chief of my own thought police. It's convenient but sometimes they really annoy the fuck out of me, because although I can tell I am being a total douchebag, I continue to be one. I am envious of douchebags that act like douchebags without even being aware that they are douchebags.

Anyway, surprise! It's been a while since my thoughts have been publicly exposed, so here we go again. And it's nice to be back, I appreciate you.

But seriously. 

A lot of shit went down. And I mean a lot. It's been a very surreal few months. 

Go go go.

Tomorrow:

-MASH